i see, thank you for your answer.
now i just need to learn how to not care about other people anymore, this will be very hard for me 
if only my subconciousness wouldnt trigger certain emotions in certain situations. i sometimes feel like i would be a small boy again, who cant stand his ground.
i already knew that my thoughts have a huge impact on my feelings, but the same could also be said about the opposite.
my feelings seem to influence my thoughts. its like a circle.
greetings,
is it possible in your opinion to keep a certain feeling or emotion, even when your surroundings would usually change them?
for example, if there were multiple people standing in a circle around me, and they would be very offensive, neglect anything i do or wish for and they would just seem to be very malicious towards me, would i be able to somehow keep a cool head and a positive emotion, or am i "doomed" to feel bad in that kind of situation?
i wish to learn how to deal with harmful people, without getting hurt or getting strongly affected by them anymore.
